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#BPD is so wild.

I'm going to write a little thread about some recent concepts.

1. This label is unethical.

When we get introduced to this label we become desperate to "heal".

"I don't want to be that person anymore".

Instantly we are set up to fail.

Not wanting to be who you are is the foundation of wanting to unalive yourself. That person is validly responding to a world both overwhelming & consuming them.

A juicy human bug for the spider of patriarchal capitalism.

2. There are two halves to me.

Joe Tracini (I know him from Twitter) makes wonderful BPD vids that show this expertly.

The BPD half cuts me down & then has me project this negative self worth concept on to others.

Then believing/understanding they have developed these feelings about me independently.

3. This is the foundation of my isolation.

This negative self talk (think: inner monologue that won't stop talking no matter what I do) is projected on everybody without me realising. And as clever as I am, I believe it.

After all I don't read people's responses correctly.

4. Being open vs. being vulnerable.

The core of BPD is shame, an inability to feel it, recognise it, process it. It dysregulates me at light speed.

Processing shame requires vulnerability. Being vulnerable means being ok with people not liking me.

5. The grey area always wins. The grey area is where it's easiest to hold multiple truths simultaneously.

I think kindness lives in the grey area.

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